Upcoming deployments and missing my hubby

finally, the blogger is fixed! not much has been happening as far as my journey with the kids on gaining grateful hearts. its still a daily struggle that I'm trying to have patience with. my whole body cringes when i hear them asking for a new toy or some snack when we are at the store or are watching t.v. i know its going to happen, but it still makes me feel like I'm failing. or that all my hard work is for nothing.


This week HA will be out of town. which happens often with his military career. but for some reason the kids are all taking this one harder than other times. i think that it struck me odd because this time i did not have a a problem with him leaving. i felt that i had prepared myself way ahead of time so that i would not feel overwhelmed while he is gone. of course other things still come up and i find myself having to do extra things (like i forgot to tell a friend that i put her on the list for that day to bring dinner to another friend in our small group who just had a baby. so because i didn't give her enough notice i had to run to the store, grab a frozen dinner meal, make it, load the kids up and drive it to her house. it was completely my fault for not being organized about it) and always will.


which of course leads me to thinking about our upcoming deployment. that stress can really drain your energy. we've been through it twice but i think this time will be the hardest. how can anyone live this kind of life without Christ is beyond me! i wake up daily seeking guidance and peace from our Maker.


I'm privileged to know several military wives who are currently going through deployments. I'm so blessed to see how God can use even separation from a loved one to better us. i know God has a purpose and I'm excited to see how this helps our family to grow. so right now, i choose to focus on that instead of the "scary stuff" that is ahead for our family.
God is so good, and his love endures forever. AMEN!